I would've loved to congratulate you, but we'll have to pospone that. To be honest... you've failed. Sorry. I mean that in a much nicer way than it sounds. Failing doesn't have to be a bad thing; failure is the starting point of a new success!
Ask yourself the following questions:
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In the meantime: ask someone (or more people) close to you to motivate and inspire you. Communicate clearly what it is you need from them or what you want to achieve.
If you don't have anyone to help you out or cheer you one, you might want to consider to involve the assistance of a personal online e-coach.
Chin up and good luck on your next move!